Morning just went to work, received the phone brother-in-law, said has something to come to my house, I said I am in the unit, he said that to the unit to seek me, not good excuse, had to in his.
Not far away from my elder sister's house unit, twenty minutes later, in my office in the corridor of the elder sister heard loudly when I was a boy I cried out of RuMing voice, with a kind of rural women of special soil flavor. I quickly ran out, motioning with his hand beckoned to her voice be gentle, she is like didn't understand, still persist.
I resented her and brother-in-law "please" to my office, a face of not happy. As if to see the brother-in-law clue, pulled the sister thy skirts, she will no longer to be quiet. Accidentally someone into my office, brother-in-law will heap out not natural stiff smile, very carefully.
I was busy with my office shuttle manager with a day between the business, are too busy of their existence. To my work after the dust settles, this just sit before desk at them, they sat in opposite me, like two schoolchildren. I do not know how, in front of the elder sister, I always have a superior to the above her sense of superiority, I also don't want to, but so many years to do exist.
Sister wearing a yellow shirt already, a bit grey hair dry and withered and yellow, like autumn is withered the weeds. Brother-in-law barefoot wears a pair of hand-made cloth shoes, not wear socks, shoes are stuck with fresh dirt, run into my eyes, not natural shrank back. In my heart I complain, they come here also don't change clothes.
I know, brother and sister so many years of life very hard, suffering in the elder sister's face full age trace, the face of the shallow wrinkles is simply a mixing of the books of the rural acid, the book of each word in a written hard. From her face, I saw the ChaiMen autumn wind, see the bread, see the sun is shining brightly, see the face loess, often remind of, my proud would weaken the many.
I averted my eyes from the depths of the far back, back to their face, they seem to be just from the ground back, a face of their journeys, or with the crops in the field of pesticide breath. Sister hand carry a Mosaic pieces of cloth pattern of the cloth, the cloth, who had been in years ago is a rural landscape unique, the word was the student knowledge scenery linger school, a lithe buy vegetables market, old man crowd the streets. Drum drum bag bag containing a sister just half the steamed stuffed bun, through the spectrum of the cloth finely risking warm heat.
I said I don't, the home have, my sister said, anyway I'm too lazy to do, the ready-made, home to eat.
Unconsciously, eyes a bit wet.
I know that they must have something to, asked about, the elder sister timidly say: "you have on hand?" I say how many? Sister pursed her lips, and from his mouth fire out two words: "ten thousand." I asked her what to do with, her brother-in-law said to do business with other people, not capital. I like a censor review them as, being follow, they be useful.
I know him not a business expected, the one thousand red, not fall a JiFeiDanDa results? I tried to use my golden tongue advised sister perish the thought, honesty to stay at home, and he said something I recently bought a house, the children go to school, economic tension, or words to that effect, brother-in-law forced out of the helpless smile, said it doesn't matter, they want again to measures.
They went away, with me to leave their disappointment, it has left the also emit hot air of steamed stuffed bun. Look at elder sister turned pale between angular figure, I suddenly feel she is poor, don't think have tears.
When thinking about poverty because of family, the father of helpless, the study result has been one of the top ShengLaYingChe sister from school tug back, and the chance to go to school to me, she never quarrel with his father, and just quietly followed his father in the field of hard work. The head, feet loess, strive for my tuition. Every time I think of these, total feel heart to them.
But the fact is, for many years, I have been in the heart of the despised her shallow, though, this is not my original intention, but it show incisively and vividly, because I don't like her children in education aspects of truly the dig a door, the contempt of social some of the phenomenon of her ill informed. I smiled at her short-sighted, not a good parents. I blame her just a mu 3 points in the field dig soil, no matter where the earth preferred. When I say that her, she always kept silent, long give a sigh, in the silent sigh, I want to have her last difficulties. The reason so many years I have read, only to now, I just know I exactly is what things.
I have been very hate those fickle shallow the generation, now, however, I had become the flap. So many years, I just are in their own truly, the gentle eyes too much in the projection of the husband of children, afraid they are injustice and damage, and for sister itself, expressed quite silently. She was like a plant was I forgotten in time in the corner of the grass, low-key alive.
Remember when I was a child, I was so cannot leave the elder sister, she is my life's umbrella, whenever anyone bully me, she's always with her body would not strong I block in her behind him. When mother chasing I let I to do the housework, she always silently the for me, lest I get the mother's play. On the technical secondary school, she always put her favorite dress for me to wear, said I can't too shabby abroad. Now is when I'm on Sunday, she always calling us a to dinner, and I, I always with all sorts of reason shuffle, because, she calls a good dinner I had already eat dirt.
Each of these, and I was not the taste. Now I did more than her strong, although, I still nothing; Although in changing the world, I was caught setbacks; Although, now I still be the grass a tree. But in her heart, I will always be slightly higher than she is better. Never stand in the highest portion of the time looking down at her. Loss of hopeless, I was so helpless, but she doesn't know, she just know, her sister now sit so luxurious office work, have central heating in the winter, summer have air conditioning, not be the burning sun bask in, don't be cold infection, she is already content. In her eyes, I was colorful aura shining, I have strong wings, I have a let me with food security, and even sometimes can be her depend on, this has been for her in the dust. But, I again and again to let her this poor depend on mean nothing. Disappear in her home the hope of up for many years.
