When snow floats up

 I began to knit scarf, the longer the knit scarf, as my endless sorrow! ...
Made four break up, in the last time, boyfriend suddenly, he accepted, sudden change of attitude let me how many a bolt from! I know that in fact he is clever, is my capricious gave him one of the best left reason; And I, buried the always insecurity and sense of responsibility of love! The results for friends clap, thought I was for the past three years most well-advised choice, and my heart, and sank into a black hole of infinite rebirth, lose the direction... ...
I thought I'd have been sinking down, however, I met DingRan.
He is the company's an agent, the company is recognized as one of the "good guys", his voice is always so gentle, attitude is always so humble, but our contact is limited to work phone communication, each other light as a cup of green tea.
A sunny afternoon, I commonplace lazy browsing MSN, suddenly found an interesting name "that girl really fly", I can't help ShiXiao was dumbfounded: "must be frustrating hapless of which love", and then look at the EMAIL address: is DingRan! ...... Originally a little lonely mood suddenly because the name and become endless smile, because no one has ever put your failures of love show so calm!
DingRan said: "this city is too hate, everyday ride a bike can't see a beautiful appearance....."
DingRan said: "I'll cook, but will only do sparerib noodles..."
DingRan said: "saw the handsome boy? I the flower is narcissus..."
DingRan said: "you don't want too ugly, or not to accompany you Christmas....."
DingRan said: "next year valentine's day, and no one has yet to you of words, I give you 12 roses, let you boast a day"
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My life has filled with DingRan, his smile his intonation in QQ jumping notes become fresh and halcyon, chat became my brokenhearted of all content after, and DingRan became my happiness dependence, in casual shortened my painful journey, as a soft soft winter sunshine, the brilliant my entire 25 sky.
DingRan said: "I want to have a hold bear, because no one had sent", this sad desire for the doll's desire to like the childhood, sounds to a distressed. Then, a has the wind the weekend, I bought a bear hug sent to DingRan. The following Monday, he so eagerly waiting for the arrival of his gifts, at noon, at 12 12 points, overdue hold bear; In the afternoon, I saw him the MSN name changed to "12 December 12 o 'clock 12 points gift", suddenly have a soft heart pain and moved.
"DingRan, we video right, because I want to see you!"
"Another time, I consolidation arrangement, let you see enough!"
"So, you accompany me over the Christmas!"
"Good, not, this weekend we go to see the film 'promise'?"
"Good.................."
So, the agreement of the weekend but I am eager to become afraid of looking forward to! Walking in the street, each man will let me 1.70 suddenly a stunned "that is DingRan?" Then feel funny: "should have girl's feelings, don't I first love is emotionally butyl however become pure because?"
Friday's work, I asked DingRan? Were you afraid I very ugly, he said. So, I don't have change clothes, no painting thin makeup, not comb a little messy hair, because I hope DingRan see a real I, do not take any modification... ...
At night, I saw the DingRan, he didn't I imagine very handsome, and a little black, but with his eye relative at that moment, I have 2 seconds of absence, because, he smile really like daffodils euqally pure, without the flaw... Pretty soon, though, I started to change the mood of the dim, because, as he saw my at that moment, I saw his disappointment: he didn't see what he wanted to see beautiful!
Throughout the movie therefore becomes boring, we didn't say a word, not embarrassed, only strange! Later, I didn't let him to send me, just great hurry to leave, like a hiatus. Back home, I hold a quilt and cry, cry my disappointment: he actually so stick to the appearance of beautiful; Also cry my sorrow: from now on, and little a soft soft repeatedly sunshine!
All such as I imagine, on-line again meet, words no longer ambiguity, laughter is no longer living, even the MSN name is change out of all recognition, DingRan said "your friendship is too heavy I fear can't afford to..." A very nice way of refused, make me ashamed! But I am grateful DingRan, because, nothing like a person than fall in brokenhearted of despair to good, just, and suddenly lost his feelings direction, the net love, is my fault? Is the wrong time? Or wrong in DingRan just is my fragile that moment there? ... ...
DingRan said, he needs a good woman to change, I am a good woman, but not a pretty good woman, so, I can't let him change... ... Suddenly inferiority exclamation up: original, not beautiful is sometimes a crime, it can be in the harvest season, turned the autumn................ .